I hate the fact that I love you but you dont feel the same way about me. You probably never will. It hurts.

Nothing hurts more than thinking that you have a chance, when you really don’t. :(

I need you so much closer :’(

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Welcoming 2012. :)

Let’s try to be a better person this year. Study & party harder than in 2011 :-P. And thank God for all the blessings we’ve got. Thank him for all the good & hard times for the good times make us happy and the hard times give lessons to us ;).

Btw, a short story about my new year’s eve…. Here it goes!

I didn’t have a plan where to go. I asked my friend if she has a plan, but she didn’t have one too. So I told her to ask another friends about their NYE’s plan. Then finally we decided to go to Treasure Island, SF. We wanted to see the fireworks from there. We ate dinner first at top cafe then go to Treasure Island. We arrived at around 8. The firework show was still 4 hours to go. We tried to find something to do while waiting for the show. Then we decided to play frisbee (I didn’t play tho cuz I can’t). After a while, we got bored again. We ate brownies and talked to each other. Then we decided to go to Golden Gate and came back to the treasure island again. Luckily we found a place to park our cars because the place’s full already. Then we watched the show. It wasn’t as awesome as I thought it’d be but it’s still great ;-). Then we waited for like 2 hours to finally could get out from that place (yeah it’s that crowded). Then straight to home sweet home! :)

I cant get you off my mind. You’re all I want but I know I can’t be with you cause you already have someone else in your heart. And knowing the fact that you like someone else kills me. It breaks me into pieces but I cant do anything to change that fact, right? :’(. I’m in ruins. You appear in my dream every night. I wish it wasn’t just a dream. I sleep late everyday cause I cant sleep. And it’s because of you. The thought of losing you kills me slowly. I’m literally going crazy. I need you so bad but you dont even care about me. I wish I could be exactly what you’re looking for. But just so you know, I tried. And if that aint good enough for you, then I dont know what is.